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The USA’s economy is falling down. G-7 has been signed in the US to help financial crisis in the world. $1=Rp 9,900. aarrrgghh….I think I need to bury my goals. J. I’m putting myself at the very risky situation. I thought I’m able to make things happen, without depending on the big boss here. As I thought again, oh well, I’m preparing myself if things won’t work out as I desired to be. i desperately asking God, what should I do, if things won’t work out…I don’t want to cry and being disappointed for the whole year while blaming the crisis in the world and God because the situation isn’t friendly enough to let me make things happen. Long before I got back in Indo, I have written the Plan A and Plan B.
Plan A seem doesn’t work out very well. Let’s move to Plan B. J My dreams still alive, I just have to find other ways to make those happen; I’m Crossing the bridge across. J I talked to my aunt over the phone; she planned a plan C to me which makes sense for me. I thought I need a huge courage to support my goals to make it happens. My desire to take my parents to the United States is my dreamJ...hihihi…

Last Sunday night I couldn’t get sleep very well, I woke up at midnight; I had a cup of hot chocolate and get a book to read. I started researching for other alternatives in the internet, I almost worrying a lot of things….i closed my eyes and prayed, what a blessed, I knew it was Him. God remained me years ago, when he helped me, walked with me, talked to me, he visualized me with things that He has ever done to me. what needs to be worried He gave an incredible love. I knew the only person that I could ask and answer is GOD. I prayed “God, I’m sure you won’t let the bad things happen, You know exactly what I need, don’t you?” I will do the best I could. I’ve been so blessed, so loved, no need to worry…a father always knows the best for His son. Don’t we believe so?

I saw my dad how he works very hard, i’m proud of my dad. I really do..i continued my prayer and asked God to let my parents know, although I live far away from home, I want them to know, I love them with whole my heart, I’m going to do the best. The decision that I made that created consequences, I’ll be “in duty” with those consequences. J